just some little things

I am just happy and content. That's all.

school is exhausting. sometimes i am so tired that i don't want to talk to anyone. i don't know if i will get into my graduate program. i am not married, and all of my closest friends are. i am finding that i am lactose intolerant-or something. i don't know if i will get into the class i want/need. i am a little bit scared to give my heart away to someone. there is some pressure as an art history student to dress nicely and up-to-date. i started biting my nails again. i missed my mommy when she went to australia, and am glad she is back. when you love someone, they should feel like home to you, and they should resonate in your heart and make you very happy. sometimes i don't know what to say to people, but secretly i love them. i want to live up to my full potential. tonight i stayed up late so i could empty our water heater's supply of hot water in one shower. the most comforting and loving thing to me is physical touch - my number one love language. i feel the most confident when i am sitting in my capstone class feeling respected and having the chance to stretch my thoughts and ideas. i love looking people in the eyes when i am having an important conversation, but sometimes i have a sinus headache and my eyes hurt. sometimes when my friends say, "you know what, i like you. i think we get along well," my heart gets fluttery and soft. that happened to me twice today. i really love both my parents and all my brothers and sisters, so much that my heart almost hurts. that is how i will know if i love someone enough to marry them. i am a little bit jealous of my friend Rachel Ann who is starting grad school today, but i think my time left at BYU is just perfect. i'm a little bit tired of being in a singles ward and spend much of my social time on dates or hanging out with married friends. i never thought of the stars in connection with our spirits and our opportunities before or after this life before. i started my graduate school applications this week, and saying i am graduating in april makes me feel so proud and cheerful. i still think the first week of byu in the fall is the best time. i like to show off my friends because i'm amazed at how wonderful they are and what they do for me. i love trusting people and trusting Heavenly Father.